My life has been enriched through my study of where my more subtle senses have shown and continually teach me. This is why I am writing this post. I think the subject can be dismissed as some “woo woo” thing, of course. Those are not the people I am writing this for. You have to know something to really know something. Only we can let ourselves in by letting ourselves in. This takes time, work, discipline, and often money (like any investment). Like anything, we reap what we sow. We begin to get better because we stop avoiding the uncomfortable’ness of ourselves and life and do the work.

There is a cost to getting better and a cost for staying where we are. Usually, it’s some kind of fear that we focus on instead of where we would like to be. Sometimes, we are just in an uncomfortable situation and it is going to take more time to move ourselves through it. Oddly, we might know we are right where we’re meant to be and we recognize our work right now is to take as good of care of ourselves as we can. We look for what can be learned and “alchemized” in even the most severe and painful seeming times. We choose to get stronger. We learn a kind of balance, malleability, and agility that can only come through such times of opportunity. We become a kind of resilience that could come no other way. We become a kind of foundation.

I began this writing talking about subtle senses. Maybe I will back up a little bit. If anyone has followed my work over the years, especially my writing, you may know that I regularly mention paying attention. This is because this is the way. In getting better we realize we used to live a fairly reactive life. Through showing up for ourselves and doing our work we begin to understand more deeply what we really are. We begin to shift because we recognize and learn about attention/power and how they affect things. All of this is possible because we decide to pay attention. We develop a kind of understanding for others because we remember how we used to live and be. We get better but we still live in a body and live in this world. We know we’re not the same and we know (somewhat…from experience) how we got here. This doesn’t make us righteous. In fact, it was in working through our fears and facing our aspects that we realized the traps in dogma/belief and the relationship to the matrix. We expand our empathy and discretion, and understand for when and with whom it will be shared.

I love learning. The process of learning gives me great joy. It is so fun to learn and one of the ways I learn is through creating. Whether it has been through music, visual art, acting, writing, etc…I continually unfold and ask myself how I can share some of my results with others. Whereas dogma says there is one way, I prefer to meet people coming from all directions at the fountain of life.

I know people who are so wise. Sometimes, I question why me? In the context of knowing I know just a little bit, that others know so much more, why share at all? Sharing has been a way for me to keep learning and unfolding. Although such people are not immediately in my life, they were at one point and their presence at that time on my path inspired me greatly. I think I am someone like them. Their qualities were uniquely “them”, but they shared similar qualities. They are the result of their work and they are incredible people living seemingly simple lives. They show up and consider others. They are not weak because they know how to hold space for vulnerability. I’m sure they could show the greatest fierceness in the world if it was required. They are the ones our world needs, because they have this discretion and power because (in my presumption) of their commitment to truth…wherever it is found. They seem like the kind of people who go in when everyone else runs away.

Our relationship to what most of the world would call dark is important. Darkness is the absence of light. There is no darkness if there is no light. When what was “dark” is understood it no longer leads our minds and bodies like it used to. Feed what needs to be fed. Find where the disturbance is coming from and learn from it. You’ll likely live, but you may not be the you…the “you” you used to believe in.